The Pang of Lost Love
Hello Mama,
I am doing fine
No, I haven’t talked to her in a while
But I bet she is alright
If there is anyone
Who could survive life’s surprises, it’s her
She is resilient
Mama I know
I did screw up something amazing
That haunts me everyday
Honestly, I rather not talk about her
There is so much pain harbouring in me
I can’t change anything
That in itself is hell
Yes Mama,
I am jealous
Of whoever ended up with her
I had to quit social media
Get rid of everything that reminded me of her
I relocated to a new city
Got rid of most of my friends
In hopes of starting afresh
But the world without her, feels so lonely
Life is just so meaningless
Don’t say that
I haven’t really learned my lesson
What is the use of lessons
That I can’t apply in life’s exams?
If this was a school
I’d only want to be held back
Spend all my days in her class
It wasn’t all rainbow and sunshine
But she made even the toughest times bearable
It wasn’t really easy
But deep down I knew she worth it
She had a way
Of making love make sense
Yes Mama
Only if wishes were horses
I would ride to the ends of the world
To set back time
Meet her all over again
Do this Love thing better
But that isn’t an option now
I’ll have to wallow, in this river of tears
Running my heart on shattered glasses
At least the pain, will remind of what I lost
I know Ma
I am an idiot
Are you even surprised?
I’ve thought everyone knew
But No
I am not going to kneel in front of her
I won’t ask her to get back to me
Even with all this regret
I know I will mess up
Anyway
She looks happy
I have been praying
For God to make me a better man
And when he sees that I am ready
Break them up
Bring her back in my arms
But until then
I am embracing this pain
It’s selfish Ma
I am not ashamed though
It’s HER we are talking about
Even the Lord knows
She deserves this and more
Listen Ma
The minute I get her back
Her dad better be ready
To walk this angel down the aisle
I am not taking any more chances
Never tiptoeing, ever again
I’m gonna love her the loudest
Make her the happiest
Let the world see
What Loving right looks like
