Sorry I Ghosted

Hello,
I can imagine your eyes rolling so hard right now seeing my number; if you remember it or haven't blocked me which I hope you didn't do since this message, call it essay if you want, is very important.

Let me start by saying I am really sorry for vanishing in a thin air like that, I left you hanging and that was uncool of me.

I know since then, you've had so many questions and I am here to try as best as I can to give you closure. I ghosted you so take this as spirits coming from the dead to help you deal with the past; how noble 😊.

Remember when we met?
Shit was effortless, we were so damn good together, something they'd today call Instagrammable couple, everyone told us how cute we were but turns out, cute didn't cut it.

Yes, we were cute together but were we compatible? I don’t think so and that drove me away. I remember the few fights we had, words got thrown around and my love for you got bruised. I didn’t want that to be our life, I didn’t want to fight. At times, it felt like you want to start something that will result in that crazy make up sex. Afraid of our presence around each other becoming toxic, I chose to leave and let you go on with your life. Please tell me it didn’t hurt that much, tell me the pain was bearable, tell me that didn’t shatter you to pieces and please tell me, you’re doing better without me.

The minute your friends started flirting I grew paranoid, were you sending them as a test or they really wanted a taste of my chocolate. Either way, I was in a dilemma, morally I am not that strong to be honest, I knew I was going to fail miserably. I had to decide, whether am I going to stick around, get together with some of your friends and risk seeing you broken or do I vanish and spare you the betrayal that was imminent.

Your nosy friends are probably saying if I loved you enough I would've managed to overcome any temptations but trust me, if those stones were actual loaves of bread maybe Jesus would have failed the test. What am saying here is, we all have moments of weaknesses, I couldn't trust myself around such a group of sexy ladies.

Another reason why I ghosted is, my mama didn't like you. I know, shocker considering how close you two were. For me, it has always been crucial for my two most important women to get along, how was I going to tell you that my Mom believes you aren't good for me? I couldn't stay and couldn't muster courage to have that conversation with you, disappearing without good bye felt like the only logical solution at that time, I apologize for that.

I hope you aren't harboring any feelings for me, I have realized that I will never be good enough for you. I don't want you to go through life doubting yourself, you are such an amazing woman and the only reason it didn't work between us was because I am an asshole; took me a while to realize and come to terms with that.